Sinatra Cycle: All My Tomorrows

by Alicia McKenzie



DISCLAIMER: The characters belong to Marvel, and are used without permission for entertainment purposes only. The Sinatra lyrics are also used without permission, for entertainment only. This is set in a possible near-future, after Apocalypse’s death, and should be read as a companion piece to ‘Goodbye’.

AUTHOR’S NOTE: The concept of the ‘Sinatra Cycle’ is basically non-connected scenes from various periods and pivotal moments in Cable and Domino’s mutual history, accompanied by Sinatra lyrics. For those of you who don’t know, Sinatra is canonically Cable’s favorite singer, and I find it uncanny how many of his songs ‘fit’. I got all the lyrics for this and further installments from the Sinatra Songbook at and I’m using them all without permission, for entertainment purposes only.

“Just a few minutes,” Hank said softly. I nodded, keeping my expression as composed as I could as I stepped around the partition. At the sight of the still, bandaged form lying on the biobed, I hesitated, biting my lip so hard that I tasted blood. *Oh, Nate. . .* I had to hold on to the partition for a moment, for support. I’d expected it to be bad, after the way Scott’s voice had sounded on the phone, but he looked so. . .

“Domino?” A large, blue-furred hand came down gently on my shoulder.

“I’m fine, Hank,” I said roughly. I reached up and squeezed his hand anyway.

And I was. Totally in control of myself. It was just. . .this wasn’t winning. You couldn’t call it that. Silently, I moved across the room and sat down beside the bed.

“I hear you didn’t leave enough of Apocalypse for a Dustbuster to pick up,” I said weakly, after a long moment. His chest rose and fell in a shallow, but regular rhythm. The soft noises the monitors made as they kept track of his vital signs were oddly reassuring. “Although I should kick your ass, you know. Bad enough I was one of your Twelve and you didn’t tell me. . .but you should have let me BE there, Nate.”

I’d felt it, like something tugging at the inside of my head, and collapsed in the middle of a sparring session with Jimmy while my mind was pulled halfway across the world to Akkaba. Everything got sort of. . .blurry, after that. All I remembered was light and heat and one scream from Nathan before everything had gone dark. . .

“You should have let me be there,” I repeated in a whisper, brushing the back of my hand across my eyes, irritably. “I’m not going to let you off the hook about this, you know,” I continued, forcing my voice back to normal as I reached forward and took his hand, about the only part of him I could safely touch at the moment. “I’m serious. Listen to my voice. You know I’m serious.”

His lips parted, but he didn’t speak. I heard the words in my mind, instead, a weak whisper that I had to concentrate hard to hear.

#I. . .know.#

I pulled the chair closer to the bed, blinking back tears as I saw his eyes flutter open. He tried to smile, and I squeezed his hand as tightly as I dared.

“You are a mess,” I said with an unsteady smile, assessing what I could see of his injuries and matching it up with what little Hank had told me. ‘Touch-and-go’, Scott had said on the phone. I’d never liked that expression. “See what happens when you try to do things by yourself? You need a keeper. . .”

He swallowed. It looked like it hurt. “Offering?” he murmured, his voice raw, barely audible.

I wasn’t sure whether it was a joke or not. “Maybe,” I finally said, laying his hand back down by his side carefully and straightening the blanket covering him. “Then again, maybe not.” I tried to smile. It came out twisted, more than a little bitter.

#You’re. . .angry.# He sounded almost resigned, the idiot.

“Yeah, I am,” I said, careful to keep my voice low. I didn’t need Hank in here kicking me out for yelling at his patient, even though that was what I really wanted to do. Yell at him. . .or hold on to him tight and not let go for the rest of my life. I hadn’t decided yet. “You should have told me, Nate.”

“D-Didn’t. . .want. . .”

“Me there,” I said, trying to stay casual. “I know THAT, Nathan. I’m guessing it was a combination of needing to know I was with the kids, and wanting to protect me in that typically chauvinistic way of yours. The first doesn’t really bother me, but the second. . .didn’t I tell you what I was going to do to you if you ever pulled shit like that again?”

He closed his eyes, and I flinched at the sight of one solitary tear trickling down his cheek. “Damn it,” I said, more softly, reaching out and brushing it away gently. “I forgive you, all right? Since you managed to come back alive, I forgive you. Now, if you’d gotten yourself killed, you stubborn old son of a bitch. . .” I let the threat trail off, shaking my head. I shouldn’t be doing this, not now. . .

But part of me had to know.

“What do you do now, Nate?” I asked. “Once Hank’s finished putting you back together, I mean.” I wasn’t going to think about any alternative. It WAS going to happen. That was all there was to it.

He opened his eyes, blinking up at the ceiling. #You. . .make me sound like. . .Humpty-Dumpty, or something. . .#

I took his hand again. “Don’t avoid the question.”

A few more tears escaped and followed the first. I wasn’t sure whether they were from pain, or frustration, or something else. . .#I don’t. . .KNOW, all right? D-Don’t know what I. . .want. That what you w-wanted to hear?#

“That’ll do,” I whispered, blinking back tears of my own. “But you know what I really do want, Nate? I want you to give yourself the chance to find out. I want you to find something worth living for.” I smiled shakily. “You think you might want to try that?”

“Got. . .a f-few ideas,” he whispered brokenly, his eyes fixing on my face with something close to desperation in their pain-fogged depths. “Dom. . .p-please?” #Don’t. . .go?#

I got up and sat down gingerly on the bed beside him, careful not to jostle him. “I’ve got a few ideas too,” I whispered, leaning over and kissing him gently. “We can talk about that later. Close your eyes.”

Sleep claimed him again about as quickly as I’d expected. I moved back to the chair and took his hand again. “We’ve got plenty of time, Nate,” I said softly. I wasn’t going to let it be any other way. If our thoughts shaped the universe, like he was always saying, than I was going to make mine into master architects, or die trying.

Hank poked his head in a few minutes later, smiled, and left again without a word.

Today I may not have a thing at all
Except for just a dream or two
But I’ve got lots of plans for tomorrow
And all my tomorrows belong to you

Right now it may not seem like spring at all
We’re drifting and the laughs are few
But I’ve got rainbows planned for tomorrow
And all my tomorrows belong to you

As long as I’ve got arms that cling at all
It’s you that I’ll be clinging to
And all the dreams I dream, beg, or borrow
On some bright tomorrow they’ll all come true

And all my bright tomorrows belong to you

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